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Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Debbie G., Arlington Heights, IL, Arlington Heights, IL

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

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on Jul. 18 2011 at 6:35 pm
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This was very interesting. There seemed to be a lot of double meanings in this.

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on Jul. 18 2011 at 12:27 pm
Angie.Hudak GOLD, Doylestown, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
"Hope for the best, expect the worst."
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." -Bob Marley

Honestly, I teared up. This is beyond beautiful. I was truly moved by your writing.

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on Jul. 18 2011 at 10:16 am
A_____, Columbus, Ohio
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I love the "believe" part of this, at the end of some of the stanzas.  It really gives the piece something beautiful.

on Jul. 18 2011 at 8:10 am
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This is really moving. Your writing is truly beautiful.

on Jul. 10 2011 at 12:39 am
Princess2011 BRONZE, New Delhi, Other
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...its..very very very nice...:)

on Jun. 26 2011 at 6:35 pm
estherhoran__ GOLD, Bell Gardens, California
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Favorite Quote:
Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God's handwriting. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

it was amazing

on Jun. 26 2011 at 1:44 pm
poetic.eyes PLATINUM, Everson, Washington
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I want to tell you that this is a touching poem. It is deep in it's own particular way, and it blew my speech away for the moments that I read it.

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on Jun. 26 2011 at 12:44 pm
HannahT SILVER, Medford, New Jersey
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This is absolutely beautiful! It's so different and so unique. This piece is written quite well!!! Great job!

on Jun. 26 2011 at 6:37 am
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"I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence. Fear is such a weak emotion, that's why I despise it..."

My goodness. The beauty within this poem is unfathomable. I was speechless after the last line. Bravo!

on Jun. 22 2011 at 9:24 pm
RiverSong BRONZE, Baltimore, Maryland
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I probably already commented on this one, I don't remember, but in case I didn't I have to say:

No, I can't say anything, I'm speechless.  It takes a really powerful poem to render me speechless, and you have done it.  Five stars!

on Jun. 21 2011 at 6:21 pm
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Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. That's all I can say.

on Jun. 15 2011 at 11:23 pm PLATINUM, Ceres, California
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This is brilliant. I love this poem.

on Jun. 13 2011 at 5:36 pm
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I don't know what to say other than great! But the beginning could use a little more flow

on Jun. 4 2011 at 11:01 pm
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i acttually didnt need to read this one right now. I remember it from the first time i  was on the site. it is fantastic!

on Jun. 4 2011 at 10:16 pm
TheLemonadeCrusade SILVER, Huntersville, North Carolina
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all i can say is this is dang did i love it..i mean its so moving and honest..absolutely amzing


on Jun. 4 2011 at 4:56 pm
JoPepper PLATINUM, Annandale, Virginia
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This is so pretty!!!!! I don't think I breathed once when I read it(that's what it felt like) I love it..... It was so sad!!!! Can you please read some of my stuff.   I loved this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'((

on Jun. 4 2011 at 4:49 pm
RRRRR BRONZE, Orrville, Ohio
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This. is. amazing. Its beautifully written and i love how you broke the stanzas up. Awesome!

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on Jun. 4 2011 at 3:30 pm
I don't completly understand this, but reading it is very capitivating, i like to write poetry, but one day i wish i can write with this much pashion

on Jun. 4 2011 at 11:39 am
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This is beautiful and awesome!!!!! :D I've never read anything like it and I <3 it!!!! :)