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Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Debbie G., Arlington Heights, IL, Arlington Heights, IL

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

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This article has 376 comments.

on Apr. 14 2009 at 9:02 pm
Ahhhhmazing. This is frigging mind-blowing.

on Apr. 4 2009 at 3:35 am
francheeze88 SILVER, Oak Park, Illinois
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this is so powerfull

on Mar. 26 2009 at 7:07 pm
firstsnowfalls DIAMOND, Marcellus, New York
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wow. this was amazing. I am...blown away. please keep writing. i can feel the emotion.

on Mar. 5 2009 at 7:12 pm
kissingdawn331 SILVER, Palatine, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
"when your hourglass runs out of sand you can't flip it over and start again."(changes weekly so check next weeks l8er) kind of reminds me of THE CATALYST the book....i reallly got what u were saying great job

on Feb. 27 2009 at 5:27 am
Jesselissa SILVER, Reynolds, Illinois
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on Feb. 25 2009 at 4:46 pm
SierraWilkerson SILVER, Old Hickory, Tennessee
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thats beautiful, and touching, i got exactly what you were saying. good job ^_^

FallenPoet89 said...
on Feb. 24 2009 at 2:32 am
Very good and different,good imagination and talent. Deb u done good!!

aivilo SILVER said...
on Feb. 24 2009 at 2:04 am
aivilo SILVER, Circleville, Ohio
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wow. awesome!!

on Feb. 23 2009 at 10:36 pm
Muh-ree-uh PLATINUM, Springboro, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"This one's for the girls who have ever had a broken heart, who have wished upon a shooting star, you're beautiful the way you are..."
-Martina McBride

Lovely poem! Brilliant! Keep writing!!!! U rock, Debbie!

on Feb. 23 2009 at 8:25 pm
Mollie Baker BRONZE, Ipswich, Massachusetts
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wow, this is great. the only things i would change were the grammatical errors (there were a few) but besides that, it's amazing. i really liked the imagery and the ending... it gave me chills

Fangz PLATINUM said...
on Feb. 23 2009 at 5:27 pm
Fangz PLATINUM, Ware, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
In necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, in omnibus caritas.

interesting. not spectacular, but its definately one of the best ones i've read here.

Nataliee_x said...
on Feb. 23 2009 at 1:33 pm
This Is Like A FariyTale Because, She Say's That She Belives In Angless and She Explains What She Say's In Good And Detail To Say What She's Saying . :)

einbrick said...
on Feb. 19 2009 at 3:44 am
uhm... i guess im a snob. I wasnt too thrilled by this. there are a couple grammatical and stylistic changes you could have made to make this 100 times more powerful. and its an overdone subject that seems to be being written about like its going out of style, whatever it is you just wrote up there

on Feb. 17 2009 at 4:26 pm
BannedGeekII SILVER, Commack, New York
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That Was Amazing!!!!!

on Feb. 8 2009 at 4:24 pm
you are one of the most amazing writers i have found on her. keep it up. one day you might have your own book. thats my dream,

kaycee_anne said...
on Feb. 6 2009 at 1:47 pm
Great concept. i didnt really get a sence of flow though. Keep working.

on Feb. 5 2009 at 10:06 pm
Awesome piece. Really makes you think about your beliefs. It's intense and flows really well. Overall, fantastic job. Keep Writing!

on Feb. 5 2009 at 3:53 pm
I Realy Love your poetry i do some poems too. .:) thats realy awesome it made me think alot .. well keep up the good work. .i love it

on Feb. 5 2009 at 3:30 pm
Wow--amazing, amazing poem. Your creative usage of tenses really sneak in the essence of the story--sadness, death, unsaid farewells. Write on, Debbie!

tweedle dee said...
on Feb. 5 2009 at 1:39 pm
very nice