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Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Debbie G., Arlington Heights, IL, Arlington Heights, IL

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

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Hirschigirl said...
on Nov. 27 2011 at 11:44 am
Hirschigirl, Sandy, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
“Remember, Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but she did it backwards and in high heels.”

Wow this is amazing! The end left me speechless! Keep writing :)

emattox SILVER said...
on Nov. 17 2011 at 11:56 am
emattox SILVER, Onancock, Virginia
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Favorite Quote:
You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty. -Ghandi

This deserves75189729027 stars. Beautiful :)

on Nov. 5 2011 at 10:55 pm
WritingJulia SILVER, Binghamton, New York
6 articles 0 photos 73 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Kind words can be short and easy to say, but their echoes are truly endless." -Mother Theresa

what an awesome poem

ELM522 DIAMOND said...
on Nov. 5 2011 at 7:11 pm
ELM522 DIAMOND, Selden, New York
79 articles 0 photos 139 comments

Favorite Quote:
"All those other girls, well they're beautiful, but would they write a song for you?"-"Hey Stephen" by Taylor Swift

This is an amazing piece.  I cannot even express in words how beautiful it really is.

imyours said...
on Nov. 5 2011 at 4:43 pm
This piece is stunning. I'm speechless. The flow of this piece is amazing , makes me eager to hear more !!

on Nov. 5 2011 at 3:01 pm
Lauren_Faith996 SILVER, White Planes, Kentucky
6 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Of all the things God gave us, the greatest is hope."
-Dr. Eugene Shoenfeld.


on Nov. 5 2011 at 11:23 am
ReadWriteBreathe PLATINUM, Pocatello, Idaho
24 articles 4 photos 114 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You have to consider the possibility that God does not like you" Tyler Durden Fight Club

This is absolutely amazing. So beautiful.

MakaylaS. GOLD said...
on Nov. 5 2011 at 10:13 am
MakaylaS. GOLD, Fairfax, Virginia
13 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Starve a Bully, Feed your Soul, STAND GRAND." -Vincent Castronovo

This was the most beautiful poem i've read in a long time. truly, madly, beautiful. you definitely deserved to be in the magazine. loved it.

Lexie96 GOLD said...
on Oct. 28 2011 at 2:21 pm
Lexie96 GOLD, Havana, Illinois
11 articles 0 photos 378 comments

Favorite Quote:
Now Cinderella don't you go to sleep, it's such a bitter form of refuge, oh don't you know the kingdom's under siege, and everbody needs you. - The Killers

Beautiufl, if you have time check out my work? I'd love to hear your opinion

Free- GOLD said...
on Oct. 22 2011 at 7:23 pm
Free- GOLD, Blllll, Kentucky
14 articles 1 photo 25 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I believe in you and I believe in me, and I believe that we are not meaningless."
"What a waste of a perfectly good wrist."

finally some actual good writing published in the mag! I'm not one to give out 5's and starred reviews, but for you I will! BRAVO!

Seven-Teen said...
on Oct. 14 2011 at 7:58 pm
Seven-Teen, Wausaukee, Wisconsin
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Favorite Quote:
love him oh yes i do
hes for me not for you
and if by chance
you take my place
ill take my fist
and smash ur face!

i think you are such an amazing writter. this peice brought tears to my eyes and pain to my soul. you should keep on writting. i believe that if you really put your mind to it we could be reading book that you wrote some day. so keep up the good work and never stop.

aphids77 said...
on Oct. 14 2011 at 2:10 pm
aphids77, Holly Springs, North Carolina
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 that was amazing.

on Sep. 27 2011 at 8:05 pm
to.hold.the.sun SILVER, Maryville, Tennessee
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Favorite Quote:
"You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present." -John Green

I may have commented on this before, but  that last stanza seriously gives me goosebumps every time. That's the mark of a great poet: to have the reader FEEL something. To be shocked or horrified or just plain sad. A writer that can do that is truly fantastic, and your poem left me speechless with tears in my eyes.

megglemsm97 said...
on Sep. 24 2011 at 4:10 pm
megglemsm97, Middlesex, New Jersey
0 articles 10 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game."

I absolutely LOVE this!! you're so talented, keep writing!

on Sep. 23 2011 at 3:35 pm
brilliant!! love it :)

lucy said...
on Sep. 23 2011 at 9:54 am


But- is Carolyn dead, or- ?

Malia. GOLD said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 6:15 pm
Malia. GOLD, Univercity Place, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
"im added to your chain"

oh wow! this is really great. the writing is fantastic!

Mrs.parez said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 12:36 pm

i think this poem is very great and it is was very lively..

you could paint a picture in your great job Debbie


on Sep. 3 2011 at 8:38 pm
this is amazing.

on Sep. 2 2011 at 8:12 am
taintedannex GOLD, Hong Kong, Other
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Favorite Quote:
The truth is that at some point, everyone's going to hurt you. You just have to decide who's worth the pain.

Some say having something to lose is what makes you vulnerable. I believe that having something to lose only makes you stronger.

Absolutely stunning.