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Chaos Theory MAG

November 14, 2008
By Debbie G., Arlington Heights, IL, Arlington Heights, IL

Carolyn says she believes in angels
while mascara spiders creep thickly along the
heavy baggage beneath her eyes like the
black pitch of the school hallways at night or
the charcoal that she dips her fingernails in and I
remember cheating on my math test that morning
I tell her I believe in people.

Roasted honey nut, the color she was born with but
you really wouldn’t know it because of the midnight L’Oréal
she chooses, tragically highlighted with Punk Pink or
Raging Red from a bottle and 15
minutes of waiting –
It spills limply over her black eyes whenever she leans down to write and
Carolyn says she believes in fate.

In planets aligning in the universe and
Feng shui that keeps mice away and prevents ulcers but also
makes a girl fall in love with a boy but
I know all about chemistry and hormones and catalysts so I
think I believe in science.

In reincarnation, she thinks she’ll come back as a bird
Or maybe a peacock and I say I agree when I
see those striped stockings that come to her knees and
neon earrings lifeless at her shoulders but she only laughs …
tells me I never really see her and to
call her later.

Now with the dial tone in my ear
the cold trembling and I’m suffocating on nothing
because I really see her and I
know she believes in the afterlife but
she doesn’t believe in laughter and
the phone just rings and rings and rings …

Carolyn said she believed in angels.

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Haylynn GOLD said...
on Feb. 1 2012 at 3:35 pm
Haylynn GOLD, Skiatook, Oklahoma
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Extraordinary beautiful!

on Feb. 1 2012 at 2:25 pm
JarOfHearts1 SILVER, Hawthorne, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"It doesn't matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away"

so true! i know many ppl have said this before but this is so amazing...please keep writing and share with us! :)

on Feb. 1 2012 at 1:56 pm
NoaBecker SILVER, Warnsveld,
8 articles 1 photo 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
Rose: You're crazy.
Jack: That's what everybody says but, with all due respect, Miss, I'm not the one hanging off the back of a ship here.

Is it about someone you know in real life? Has she read this?

on Jan. 18 2012 at 2:17 pm
MarleyRainbow PLATINUM, Valles MInes, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
one good thing about music is, when it hits you, you feel no pain.

Its all wrapped up with many beliefs. I love it....

on Jan. 10 2012 at 8:55 pm
otherpoet SILVER, Wayland, Massachusetts
6 articles 9 photos 254 comments

Favorite Quote:
"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone." - Audrey Hepburn

Impressive work. You deserve way more than a publishing in teen ink for this (though i and many others would kill for that!) I thought this poem was beautiful.

LaceeJade GOLD said...
on Jan. 10 2012 at 8:33 pm
LaceeJade GOLD, Bucyrus, Ohio
17 articles 4 photos 136 comments

Favorite Quote:
♥ I've made mistakes in my life. i've let people take advantage of me, and i accepted way less than i deserve. But, i've learned from my bad choices, and even though there are some things i can never get back and people who will never be sorry. i'll know better next time and i wont settle for anything less than i deserve. ♥

Wow, this is very captivating. I absolutly lovd it.

on Jan. 10 2012 at 1:42 pm
n3xtusplaya DIAMOND, Honolulu, Hawaii
83 articles 23 photos 232 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for what you are not."

~Luara Moncur

Purely Amazing! I read this as if i was entranced...this is a beautiful piece of poetry!

on Jan. 10 2012 at 1:59 am
Missundrstoodx2, Indianapolis, Indiana
0 articles 11 photos 29 comments

Favorite Quote:
"You never know what it enough until you know what is more than enough."

Captivating, heart-wrenching, so engaging. Several stories wrapped into one, and it all comes full circle in the most pleasant, bittersweet, unexpected of ways. Thank you, and stay strong.

on Jan. 10 2012 at 12:56 am
Wildflower30 SILVER, Kolkata, Other
8 articles 0 photos 88 comments

Favorite Quote:
Create your own sayings, for only then do they make sense most. ---- Me

Wow would be an understatement.

on Jan. 4 2012 at 7:05 am
Meaghan_Elise BRONZE, Franklin, New Hampshire
1 article 74 photos 139 comments

Favorite Quote:
The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil, but by those who watch them without doing anything..

Your details and imagery are so flawless and descriptive. I love it!

byebye said...
on Dec. 26 2011 at 5:30 pm
byebye, Nevermore, Other
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yes, Carolyn did die I'd say. and it is spectacular isn't it! :)

on Dec. 19 2011 at 8:13 pm
Zaid1315 SILVER, Farmington, New Mexico
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Favorite Quote:
"No matter where life takes me find me with a smile" -Mac Miller

This is absolutely beautiful and good!

eliana924 GOLD said...
on Dec. 18 2011 at 11:45 pm
eliana924 GOLD, New York, New York
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Wow. Wow. Wow.

Not much else to say... great imagery, interesting concepts, very chilling. Amazing job!

byebye said...
on Dec. 5 2011 at 4:36 pm
byebye, Nevermore, Other
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I know right? :D

byebye said...
on Dec. 5 2011 at 4:35 pm
byebye, Nevermore, Other
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New update, I think this is my favorite poem ever. I read it every day atleast once. I would love to see more! :)

lol sorry....I know it's not my blog or something but this poem is amazing!

byebye said...
on Dec. 2 2011 at 9:02 pm
byebye, Nevermore, Other
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I've already commented but I read this through again and I'm just blown away by it. So beautiful, powerful, haunting....there isn't a rating high enough for this poem.

on Nov. 27 2011 at 11:32 pm
Starr420 SILVER, Ashland, Alabama
7 articles 0 photos 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left." - Marilyn Monroe

This completly made me cry. This is amazing. Much love <3 

on Nov. 27 2011 at 10:05 pm
fallawaybroken SILVER, Yardley, Pennsylvania
5 articles 0 photos 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
"When things break, it's not the actual breaking that prevents them from getting back together again. It's because a little piece gets lost - the two remaining ends couldn't fit together even if they wanted to. The whole shape has changed."-John Green

This is absolutely's so powerful and has an amazing flow. I actually think it would translate well into a spoken poem. Wonderful!

on Nov. 27 2011 at 3:06 pm
RaveFire PLATINUM, Vancouver, Washington
32 articles 1 photo 218 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Sometimes You Have To Give Up Your Life To Save It." ~some book that i don't remember the name of

"Live Life Like There's No Yesterday" ~ random billboard

"If No One Can Hurt You, Then Nobody Loves You" ` ~ Kerli?


byebye said...
on Nov. 27 2011 at 12:25 pm
byebye, Nevermore, Other
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This is so beautiful, so emotional. I look up to this poem as a writer, my poetry is not yet this strong in emotion.

Can some people check out my poem, Falling? I haven't received any feedback yet and would love to get some comments :)