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December 17, 2008
By AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

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Ampersand GOLD said...
on Sep. 21 2009 at 6:09 am
Ampersand GOLD, Mount Desert, Maine
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"RedVines! What the hell can't they do?"

I thought it was great! So sad.

AmbRawr BRONZE said...
on Sep. 10 2009 at 6:56 pm
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

i read your poem. It pained me to read becuase I knew what was coming, you expressed it in such a relatable way. My mother didn't have cancer but the whole hand holding thing got me... you're an amzing writer!

AmbRawr BRONZE said...
on Sep. 10 2009 at 6:52 pm
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

Thanks to everyone who has read and commented my poem. I'm always in shock when I get a new comment because I never thought anyone would even give a second glance at it =]

Spritz said...
on Aug. 24 2009 at 1:47 pm
Spritz, Newark, New Jersey
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shann09 said...
on Aug. 15 2009 at 5:17 am
wow. amazing. my mother died when i was in 5th grade. my father died when i was in kindergarden. so i kno how it feels when my friends complain about their parents and i feel like screaming "well at leat you have parents!" i am now 15. I still grieve over my parents, but i know that they are in a better place. i am a christian. :)

on Aug. 15 2009 at 5:04 am
ayeBNFx3 SILVER, Bronx, New York
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Beautiful, you have so much talent

on Aug. 14 2009 at 2:34 am
OfMiceAndAngel PLATINUM, Westminster, Colorado
25 articles 7 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
You have so many options in life. Never make giving up one of them. ♥

Oh my gosh. Thats powerful. I cant even imagine the pain u went thru. Im so sorry! Ur poem nearly made me cry! Definately award winning work to me!

Lonleydandy said...
on Jun. 27 2009 at 2:33 am
It was really good, beautiful and heart wrenching. I would have cried, but ever sense It happened, I haven't been able to. A quote that i wrote fits my emotions for it perfectly. Here it is : "Tears are a symbol of Heart. Once it has been broken, they just stop coming.” It was AMAZING. I loved it.

on Jun. 23 2009 at 6:43 pm
Blue-eyed_Hippy-chick, Barry, Texas
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Beautiful. Wondering if they woudld be proud of you is so hard. Made me want to cry

on Jun. 21 2009 at 3:57 am
JustADreamer95 PLATINUM, Fairfield, Ohio
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Favorite Quote:
"If Love Conquers All Then Why Is The World In Constant Chaos?" -Me

I never knew what my friend meant when she said I'd regret saying I hate you an I wish you'd die an how horrible I say my mother is but your poem has opened up my eyes, It's beautiful life it truely is but if I ever lost my mother I would always be sad

Ducky_38 said...
on Jun. 10 2009 at 4:36 pm
WOW!!!! awesome poem it is so expressing i don't know how to lose a mother but I know how it feels to lose a uncle in a house fire in december 17 and losing a granny on the same day

so god as different ways to get ther childern back home (to heaven)

your mother is close to you so don't beat urself up she's in ur heart and that's valuble to everyone.

she's ur Guardian angel throughout good and bad.

on Jun. 10 2009 at 12:00 am
sunshine18 BRONZE, Huntington, Indiana
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it's beautiful..........

on Jun. 9 2009 at 7:03 pm
ShernayB. DIAMOND, Southfield, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Some things will never change"---Tupac

Whoa! Wow! This is so beautiful and heartbreaking. I am so sorry about your mother. I like how you express yourself about her in this piece. It is so good. I mean so outstanding. My mother died too and I wonder why so many people treat their mothers like she's not the queen of their world. I would be so fortunate to have a mother. People just don't know how lucky and fortunate they are.

~~If you have time, please check out my work. Comment and rate if you wish.

This piece I wrote is about my mom:

Brandi Kim said...
on Jun. 4 2009 at 3:01 pm
Brandi Kim, Sanford, Florida
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freaking awesome. i love it. my dad died. so i can relate.

on Jun. 3 2009 at 10:07 pm
softballsweetie, Somewhere, South Carolina
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I love this poem! It makes me appreciate that I have a mom and the words spoke to me and brought tears to my eyes! Wonderful job

on Jun. 1 2009 at 5:01 pm
rachelmueller GOLD, Phoenixville, Pennsylvania
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i thought the words spoke much! the way you wrote this had my heart squeezing in pain! it brought tears to my eyes and made me glad i have a mom no matter how mean she can be i still love you

on Jun. 1 2009 at 1:49 am
SilverDawn GOLD, Burnaby, Other
10 articles 0 photos 297 comments
this poem is amazing. the sad mood is set from the very first line and I love the "And I remember" startings. i'm sorry about your mother.

Olivea said...
on May. 26 2009 at 10:26 pm
Olivea, Tottenham, Other
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Favorite Quote:
The defects and faults of the mind are like wounds in the body. After all imaginable care has been taken to heal them up, still there will be a scar left behind.
Francois de la Roche Foucauld

this was so beautiful, it made me cry

Maxine SILVER said...
on May. 24 2009 at 2:05 pm
Maxine SILVER, Hays, Kansas
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thet is really pretty!

MZ123 said...
on May. 24 2009 at 3:20 am
so touching.. it makes me appreciate my mother and how she felt when her mom died from cancer my eyes watered up please continue to write