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December 17, 2008
By AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

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on Nov. 26 2009 at 8:08 am
Miss_Bliss GOLD, Waban, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"If we did all the things we were capable of, we would literally astound ourselves."

-Thomas Edison

This was beautiful to read as a poem, and horrible when I remember that it was your actual experience... So sorry for your loss, and PLEASE keep letting it out through your writing!

on Nov. 26 2009 at 12:24 am
chrisbriones GOLD, Anaheim, California
11 articles 0 photos 83 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I believe nothing can be justly and completely explained by words."

You and I share that in common. in my case, however, the guilt i bear is for my father. its different, my case, but the base pain and..just overwhelming enough.

i hope you may tolerate what you bear better than i can ever hope to.

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on Nov. 25 2009 at 9:35 pm
Kagome BRONZE, Miami, Florida
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Oh my god this poem made me regret all the horrible things I do to my mother what I put her through. It made me teary. I don't know what I would do without my mother even though she can be herself I love her very much but I don't think she realizes that I do appreciate her.

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on Nov. 25 2009 at 8:56 pm
Just let it out Hon...This poem made me feel what you feel, and see what you saw, and let me be a part of your confusion and sadness.

Cady_ PLATINUM said...
on Nov. 25 2009 at 3:18 pm
Cady_ PLATINUM, Godley, Texas
25 articles 5 photos 32 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Never judge a book by its cover.", and "When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself." "Cherish your life." "Love equals eternity."

You know I started crying when i read this.... I am sorry bout your mother... I never complain about my mother as much as i use to, because my friends have lost their mother and i feel bad cause i barely know you but yet I feel bad for you at hte same time... I hope you keep the memories that you have and think of happy times you spentwith her...Five stars>>>

on Nov. 25 2009 at 1:35 pm
marleighxo6 GOLD, Glen Rock, New Jersey
11 articles 2 photos 3 comments

Favorite Quote:
To me, “FEARLESS” is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

- Taylor Swift

my eyes are tearing up...that was amazing!

i'm sorry about your mother. it must have been really hard.

decouvrir GOLD said...
on Nov. 25 2009 at 12:00 pm
decouvrir GOLD, Cedar Park, Texas
11 articles 0 photos 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Music is a total constant. That's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in your or the world, that one song says the same, just like that moment.” -Sarah Dessen

this ia a very good poem...but it breaks my heart too im sorry about your mother but I know how lucky I am to have a mom she and I are pretty close too but know that God is always with you :)

~God Bless! :)

on Nov. 22 2009 at 4:31 pm
LittleBritt PLATINUM, Washington, New Jersey
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this is gorgeous. painful to read but gorgeous.

JessC SILVER said...
on Nov. 16 2009 at 7:36 pm
JessC SILVER, Waterloo, Other
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this is a beautiful poem. it made me cry. good job. this is truly amazing.

Zero_K DIAMOND said...
on Nov. 16 2009 at 4:19 pm
Zero_K DIAMOND, Moosic, Pennsylvania
83 articles 0 photos 435 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life's no fun if you're not insane, otherwise you grow up to be an accountant." -Moi

Beautiful. Simply beautiful. Bravo.

-Blessed Be, may your path be bright!


3Tree3 said...
on Nov. 16 2009 at 3:13 pm
great! this poem makes me think of my cousins whose mother unexpectedly died around Christmas time

on Nov. 13 2009 at 11:05 am
dylonmichael GOLD, El Dorado, Kansas
10 articles 3 photos 118 comments

Favorite Quote:
i have two one is "live life as if it were your last day on earth" and two is "never make some one your everything because when they leave you you have nothing"

omg this almost made me cry

on Nov. 12 2009 at 7:08 pm
dancedreamer101 GOLD, Severna Park, Maryland
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same thing happened in my family. when I read this my aunt as the first I thought of. =) keep up the writing!

on Nov. 11 2009 at 4:47 pm
BaBii_GhErL PLATINUM, Wasilla, Alaska
27 articles 0 photos 24 comments

Favorite Quote:
Loving someone who doesnt love u is not wrong its just painful!

this poem was great...ur a great writer and keep ur head held high because ur good at what u do...reading this reminds me of how my cousins lost their mom who was my aunt...she was a great sure if ur mom was still around she would be a great person too...

on Nov. 7 2009 at 1:55 am
LeilaniLives PLATINUM, Fort Wayne, Indiana
42 articles 11 photos 128 comments

Favorite Quote:
"They say 'Life's two steps forward and one step back' - But what if I tripped and fell down the whole flight of stairs?"

You made me cry. Not a single poem I've read in the last few days had made me actually tear. You are beautiful inside and I'm sure outside as well. Keep your head up sweetheart. You're making the world a better place.

on Nov. 4 2009 at 10:45 pm
DEARtiffanyy GOLD, West Hills, California
12 articles 10 photos 20 comments
This is just woww.

It sent shivers up my spine.

I'm sorry for your loss. :(

on Nov. 4 2009 at 5:54 pm
4everluvjc BRONZE, Plantation, Florida
3 articles 0 photos 44 comments

Favorite Quote:
nothing is impossible with God! Try him and you'll see :)

This was sad! It makes me remember how lucky I am to have a mother that cares for me this much. I hope I learn to be appreciative after this

on Nov. 4 2009 at 4:50 pm
very_literary SILVER, Ballwin, Missouri
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This poem was absolutely amazing. I am lucky enough to still have a loving, caring mother to whom I am super close and I cannot imagine going through a single day without her because we always talk and all of my secrets lie with her. This poem pretty much moved me to tears. Could you please read my poem. It's in free verse poetry and it's called I See about the Jim Crow South.

on Nov. 4 2009 at 3:15 pm
this really hit me, i almost cried. my mom also died and i barely remember her

on Nov. 4 2009 at 2:44 pm
MM4ever PLATINUM, Owosso, Michigan
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you put that beautifully ... can can completely relate ... i almost cried