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December 17, 2008
By AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

And I remember she wouldn’t wake up.
Her lips were mushed together in a
Horrible shade of red
They buried my mother in a white dress
And red lips.
And she couldn’t see.
Where are your glasses, Mommy?
And still at sixteen I bring them to my face
And peer through the distorted murky lenses
To see what she saw
Maybe one day …
And I remember it hitting me
Like it does every day
When I hear them all talk and complain about their
“Horrible” mothers
What’s it like to have a mother
I’d give anything to know,
Or at least for them to know how lucky they are.
They know.
And I remember she wouldn’t sit up
And I dreamed of a stuffing machine because
Someone whispered by my ear she was
Cut in half and stuffed
And it made no sense
And still at sixteen I wonder
What happened to my mother?
And I remember her faintly
She doesn’t even smile in my dreams anymore
And I wonder if she’ll ever be proud of me
If she’d ever approve of me
And who I’ve become
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve done
And I remember her singing
Though I can’t hear her voice
The only happy Christmas I hold on to
Every year
Maybe one day it’ll come back
I used to think
Maybe one day she’d come back
And still at sixteen I hope
Maybe one day she’ll come back …
And I remember she wouldn’t wake up
Not even to say good-bye.

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on Nov. 4 2009 at 10:39 am
dark_roses14 PLATINUM, Mazon, Illinois
20 articles 0 photos 164 comments

Favorite Quote:
play the music, turn it up loud, dance around, and drown out reality

there arnt ever words to describe wat you feel exactly, but good job on the tone and mood of the srry for your loss.....

on Nov. 3 2009 at 11:50 pm
Writedancelove&live GOLD, Redding, California
12 articles 2 photos 66 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much."
"Karen: If you're from Africa why are you white? Gretchen: Omg Karen, you can't just ask people why they're white."

I'm crying right now. That was so amazing. Awesome work! Please keep more coming. And, if you could check out some of my stuff.

on Oct. 31 2009 at 1:07 pm
danibaby BRONZE, Waterford, Michigan
2 articles 5 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
Momma always said life was like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gunna get.

- Forest Gump

I love this poem. I am at a loss of words to describe this makes me feel.

SarahG BRONZE said...
on Oct. 13 2009 at 8:27 pm
SarahG BRONZE, Goff, Kansas
4 articles 0 photos 14 comments
I love this poem, it reminds me so much of what i want to write but i could never get the words out, i wonder too if my father would of approved of me, if he knew of everything, if he was still alive too. hey, check out my work called 9 Years Ago. if you would. im sorry for you loss.

C@D@ME3 said...
on Oct. 13 2009 at 6:26 pm
Hey i am sorry you lost your mother and I'm sorry that u feel like your mother isn't proud of u. I'm pretty sure where ever your mom is that she is proud of your poem. Congrats.

on Oct. 13 2009 at 5:41 pm
OreosandSaltines BRONZE, Hicksville, New York
2 articles 1 photo 10 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life is a journey not a destination"

Ohh im sorry for your lost beautiful poem .I see what you mean no I regret all that AI say !good job keep writting.

on Oct. 13 2009 at 2:53 pm
AbbotRabbit GOLD, Abolana, District Of Columbia
11 articles 0 photos 1029 comments

Favorite Quote:
This poem has great flow and insight.
I really enjoyed it.
Lovely poem darling =]
-Please check out the works that I have posted on here it would be highly appreciated and I think you would greatly enjoy them, Thankk youz-
XxIll tell you Im an orphan after you meet myy familyXx

This is a great poem, thats the kind of poetry that every one can relate to and every one can have compassion towards, I love this poem and it is one of the greatest I have ever read. Keep it up and you will go far!!


on Oct. 13 2009 at 10:40 am
SilverAngel SILVER, West Carollton, Ohio
8 articles 0 photos 63 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life is an open book, we take the journey until the end." ~Me

No words can describe the wave of emotions I just felt. Amazing. Your mother is proud of you!

on Oct. 13 2009 at 8:54 am
FlyleafFreak DIAMOND, Loveland, Colorado
51 articles 0 photos 203 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I have faith in fools;self confidence my friends call it"~Edger Allan Poe
"In this world of infinite insanity, your friends are the best psychiatrists you will ever have."~Me

I....I don't know what to say. This is one of the best poems I've ever read. Remember, she's still there and she still loves you. :)

on Sep. 21 2009 at 6:36 pm
Hugs-N-Kisses GOLD, Alta Vista, Kansas
12 articles 0 photos 10 comments
you don't know what you've got until its gone...

jmc.13 said...
on Sep. 21 2009 at 5:34 pm
jmc.13, Dobbs Ferry, New York
0 articles 0 photos 58 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'd rather regret what I did than what I didn't do."

God, this whole dispute is stupid. Ignore whatever imbosol put down this beautiful creation.

And Jyom Alderman, get a life.

jmc.13 said...
on Sep. 21 2009 at 5:31 pm
jmc.13, Dobbs Ferry, New York
0 articles 0 photos 58 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'd rather regret what I did than what I didn't do."

A superb and touching poem. You encompassed so many feelings of loss, heartache, anguish, sorrow, and frustration with a surprising and painful accuracy. Fantastic. Poignant. Brilliant. I think that says it all.

on Sep. 21 2009 at 5:18 pm
wordweaver96 PLATINUM, Winchester, Kentucky
37 articles 2 photos 255 comments

Favorite Quote:
" It is not our abilities but our choices that show who we truly are. "
Albus Dumbledore

See, we really DON'T have anything to fear but fear itself!

um....I wish I could say something but scotchtapedreams said it all!

on Sep. 21 2009 at 4:20 pm
IsobelFree DIAMOND, Hamilton, Other
71 articles 20 photos 298 comments

Favorite Quote:
"As long as there is open road, the familiar has the most formidable competitor." - Anonymous

This is the kind of thing that makes me realize just how disrespectful today's youth is. Jyom, don't you understand just how tender and emotional this poem is? How it's obviously about the author losing her mother, and how sad it is? I can't believe how insensitive some people are. AmbRawr, I loved the poem. Eloquent and beautiful. You're a great writer, and don't listen to anyone who says you aren't.

on Sep. 21 2009 at 3:28 pm
scotchtapedreams, Teaneck, New Jersey
0 articles 0 photos 11 comments
You know what makes this such a wonderful poem? Look at all the comments -- everyone has something else to say. There are people who feel they can relate because their mothers have died, fathers have died, maternal figures have died, fathers have been removed from their lives even while still alive... And the people who haven't had similar experiences -- they were able to feel the pain through your insight. Everyone interpreted it in a different way, but you got the pain across so beautifully. Wow, kudos to you! This was a stunning piece, so wonderfully portraying the emotions.

I like that you went back and forth between the child's feelings and the emotions you have "all grown up." There's that maturity but the same innocence: Even though in your head you know the facts that a sixteen-year-old understands, your heart -- the part of you that still clings to the child -- still hopes that "maybe one day she'll come back." Excellently written. Again, kudos.

on Sep. 21 2009 at 3:21 pm
Phantom_Girl GOLD, Ft. Carson, Colorado
14 articles 0 photos 279 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If it comes out of the lion's will be on the test."
-Mr. Bala

How do you not get it? It's about this person losing their mom. (sorry, person who wrote this, i don't know if you're a boy or a girl) I think it's good, and even if I didn't, I would write a more original comment then "this sucks!"

AmbRawr BRONZE said...
on Sep. 21 2009 at 1:30 pm
AmbRawr BRONZE, Allentown, Pennsylvania
3 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
We choose the love we think we deserve ~The Perks

To be honest, i don't see why you would find my poem complicated at all. Maybe you've never lost a parent, or a loved one? I don't know. And it's perfectly fine if you think it sucks, you still bothered to coment and it obviously made you think, wheather you got it or not, so I'm just happy you read it =]

on Sep. 21 2009 at 11:40 am
Dokidoki-rin GOLD, Clarence, New York
14 articles 6 photos 25 comments

Favorite Quote:
Whattaya gonna do, ya know?

wow.. I wish I could hug you. I hate hearing kids complain about parents or their house or clothes. they just don't get it. This poem is absolutely beautiful.

on Sep. 21 2009 at 9:56 am
dylonmichael GOLD, El Dorado, Kansas
10 articles 3 photos 118 comments

Favorite Quote:
i have two one is "live life as if it were your last day on earth" and two is "never make some one your everything because when they leave you you have nothing"

its a very heartfelt poem i like it

Ampersand GOLD said...
on Sep. 21 2009 at 6:09 am
Ampersand GOLD, Mount Desert, Maine
12 articles 0 photos 54 comments

Favorite Quote:
"RedVines! What the hell can't they do?"

I thought it was great! So sad.