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Apathy

December 9, 2013
By Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski


I like to people-watch,
Sometimes,
When I'm tired of watching the back of
My eyelids, or my rotting
Soul,
Wilted like the Beast's red
Rose

To the girl with the perpetual smile and
The naive children, but also
The man who
Praised God for taking away his
Cancer
Tumor:

I admire your hope, but I'm sorry, you're
All wrong and you don't even
Know it

You fear death like a beast waiting at the
End of a
Tunnel
And cling to life as though it's the hand keeping
You from falling off the edge of
A cliff called
Happiness

When really the most unnatural thing
Of all was being
Born

Life was never probable or meant
To happen,
So why are we here? I don't care, to
Tell you the
Truth

I crave the end of the tunnel like I crave
A dreamless sleep, the
Light
That they say awaits me there

Death
Was made for those like me, for those
Who embrace
Reality

And I'm sorry, but I don't want your
Help or your
Therapy,
Because it's kind of like frostbite, this
Sadness

And so trying to get better is like
Washing my
Hands
In warm water after days in
The snow:
The pain of trying to feel again might
Kill me
Faster

The agony I'd have to
Endure
As you try and warm my cold,
Dead heart
Is not something I will ever willingly
Embrace again

But it's okay, because I'm past the point
Of salvation
Anyways,
And my suffering will be the first to
Go,
Not my appendages

I used to envy those who are numb with
The cold,
Because apathy seemed beautiful
Compared to
This

But though I think I might
Be dying;
Now that I've bled out, and my chest
Is still,
I feel every last goddamn inch
Of pain
That I've been holding at arms
Length

But it's not my own, it's
Yours,
And have I mentioned I'm
Sorry?



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on Dec. 17 2013 at 10:20 am
TargonTheDragon GOLD, Ofallon, Missouri
15 articles 16 photos 292 comments

Favorite Quote:
First dentistry was painless.
Then bicycles were chainless,
Carriages were horseless,
And many laws enforceless.

Next cookery was fireless,
Telegraphy was wireless,
Cigars were nicotineless,
And coffee caffeineless.

Soon oranges were seedless,
The putting green was weedless,
The college boy was hatless,
The proper diet fatless.

New motor roads are dustless,
The latest steel is rustless,
Our tennis courts are sodless,
Our new religion — godless.

as Mumford and Sons said,  "if only i had an enemy  bigger than my apathy  i couldve won."

on Dec. 16 2013 at 6:26 pm
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
214 articles 14 photos 1163 comments

Favorite Quote:
“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”
― Charles Bukowski

thank you so much! how are you? (:

on Dec. 16 2013 at 4:30 pm
MorningStar921 PLATINUM, Cheshire, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 42 comments

Favorite Quote:
"They made their own choice. They chose family. And, well... isn't that kinda the whole point? No doubt - endings are hard. But then again... nothing ever really ends, does it?"
--Chuck, 'Supernatural' Episode 522

This is literally the best poem I've seen in forever. 


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