I cry myself to sleep, not knowing what’s eating me.
This feeling is so new to me,
I don’t know what it is.
This darkness that’s forming inside of my chest,
I just don’t know how to let it go.
I don’t know why I’m here right now,
I feel like I just don’t belong.
I don’t know how to deal with this.
I don’t know what the meaning of life is.
I don’t think anyone understands.
Life is just passing by a blur.
Nothing to focus on or pay attention too.
I don’t think I should be living this life.

There is no one to talk to.
There is no one to tell this too.
I’m surrounded by a crowd, but still feeling alone.
I feel like crying but no tears ever come out.
I’m feeling so lonely and so lost.
The lights of heaven are all out.
I can’t find my way back home,
And there’s no one to help me back.

There’s a dream that I want to live.
But I can’t see that it anymore.
I don’t know if I want it, I don’t even know if I can have it.
My thoughts keep drifting to my idealistic world.
But reality keeps biting back.
I wonder why life has to be this hard.
And I realize that there’s so many things I lack.
I’m trying to live life covering up the pain,
But inside the tears are falling like unstopping rain.

I’m feeling so alone.
Standing here in the middle of the road.
Not knowing where I belong.
Not knowing why I belong.
Your words don’t even comfort me anymore.
Your thoughts don’t fill me with love anymore.
I don’t see the point of this life.
I don’t see the point of trying.


I don’t want to cry again.
I don’t want to feel these tears fall down again.
I want to go live in a world that I can’t feel this pain.
I want to dream about a place with no pain.
I want to smile again.
I want to laugh again.
I want to be careless, and have no more worries again.
I want to fly away, and run away.
I want to escape from these nightmares.
And cover myself with fairy tales.

No one can know I feel pain.
No one can know that I feel alone.
No one can ever find out.
No one will ever find out
Because by morning,
I regain control.
Life is still a haze,
But I cover up my tears and plaster a smile
And open the doors back to reality.