have you ever felt it in your heart

have you ever felt this feeling

of a love

you have not yet known

i live with this longing in my chest

of a hundred thousand heartbeats

thrumming relentlessly for the one

who will complete my soul's disparity

but there is a fear that comes with time

of expectation and heart break and loss

of creating an idea too perfect to exist

of dreams that go unanswered

to feel this intensity of want

is to feel the pain of a loss

that has not yet happened

yet which plagues one day by day

for cuddles

wrapped in the arms of my love

for kisses

peppered in like sprinkles on frosting

for conversations

spent under starry night skies

for a love

as neverending

as God's eternal slumber

and thus i send my love 

of a hundred thousand heartbeats

to the one i know not of

to the one i hope to meet

my love.