I close my eyes and drift off to sleep
But I'm soon to wake and face my fear
It's not the morning nor is it school
It's Sleep paralysis
The feeling of getting held down
Unable to move and not know why
Bad memories slip back into my mind
That's not the worst of it
But I know what's next
He's holding me down
I start to panic
It's sexual abuse
Unable talk
Unable to move
Unable to fight for my freedom
Unable to scream for help
He's not leaving till he's satisfied
I lay there limp
Not because I want to but I just can't seem to move
I want it to end
I want him to leave
I think this isn't real
It's a nightmare
I try to wake up from this torture
I can't get away
I'm not waking up
It's not a nightmare
It's not even real
No one is here in this small, dark, lonely room
I still can't move
I think to myself
Maybe I'm dead..
But if I were to be dead why am I still suffering
I'm not dead
It's not sexual abuse
It's not a nightmare
It's sleep paralysis
I'm starting to calm down
My breathing starts to become steady again
My heartbeat returns to normal
My legs can move
My fear has vanished for now
Soon to come back another night
It's sleep paralysis