If I could find a test

That just gave me a number
That would be the best
If there is a spectrum
Then where to I lie
And how do I find
Out
Out of the closet
Would be nice
But what if I was never in it
I don't think I'm attracted to men
But what if I'm just following a 'trend'
Because my sister says it's not me
It's just a phase
Not it will be ok
Ok well I'm not okay

Because you see
I crave romantic energy
But then when I realize that guys looking at me
It falls short of fantasy
So doesn't that mean I'm a six
On the spectrum of who I want to hick
Or maybe I missed calculated
I'm not that good with numbers
And it's just as possible
For me to be a three
Right? I don't know
A 3 maybe
3, 2, 1,
1
At least  That would be easiest for my family

But what about me
Because you see when she smiles
When she smiles at me
I think maybe
But there's no chance
She's tall and great
And straight
I think
I don't know
But I don't know
Whether I'm a line
Or off to the side
All I know is that when that guy
Reaches out to me online
I'm unaffected, uncomfortable
But when the girl just waves hi
I get a glimmer in my eye

But what if I'm wrong
Must a label be put on
I just want to know what I'm looking for
I'm just looking for someone o adore

So If there is a spectrum
Then where to I lie
And how do I find
Out