I drown in my insecurities and I cant help it

Picking at everything they see and what they dislike

I frown to understanding Im not made like them or for their kind

Some thing keeps telling me to relax and unwind

I keep it a secret so they wouldn't find out

That my beautiful is really falling apart

The people in my past have been breaking me down

But it's okay I still rise from the ground

To this boy that I care for so deeply

The thing is I dont show you at times that I'm weeping

Praying for you not to be the same and understand that everything isn't a game

But to testify that you are real and you can deal is so incredible to me

But maybe everything isn't what it seems

Because my past is a horrid thing people made bets

So I wouldnt know their scheme

Basically what my whole lifre has been is pain

That's whats in my blood stream