4:18 a.m.
A dimly lit cul de sac never seemed so romantic
the same rap song played over and over in your car
and I could only see your face by the light of the dashboard

We were silent
I let you focus on the road as you drove
and I took in your presence one glance at a time

Ruffled hair
Soft, tired eyes

I didn’t want to ruin this moment
I didn’t want my voice piercing the silence

at this moment
perfection was real
The past was in the past
and the future wasn’t worth thinking about

My house was miles away
but I’ve never been more close to home

I never asked for more
I never expected more
but you still gave me all the stars
when I’m barely worth the moon

you are the arm around my chest
sparing me from the cold
you are the smile on my face
bringing pain to my cheeks
you are the jacket 3 sizes too big
sheltering me from the early morning air
you are the taste still left on my lips
filling me with warmth

I don’t know if the silence means anything to you
it’s just silence
nothing

Silence for me is everything I could ever say
Silence is the perfection I couldn’t obtain alone
Silence was simplicity
and love
and hope
and shelter
and everything
but nothing
silence was nothing

you never said you loved me
I never said I loved you

we both sat in your car
in silence
the words echoed in my head
I practically shouted them
but silence was still hovering over us

but in this moment I didn’t need to say it
for you to know
I let the silence do the talking