When I gaze out the window,
I see children playing and having a blast,
They mimic space ships taking off.
Why couldn't I have a childhood like that?

I stay in my room,
thinking why can't I play with my friends.
When will my life turn around?

I was always told that someday there will be someone to save me,
He will be there at a gate waiting for me.
I think … and think of what my life will turn out to be,
once I am wanted and proud to be.

My mother always told me that I was special,
I never understood what was wrong.
but my friends were always there,
when I needed someone to care.

When I walk the halls,
I am always picked on.
I trip.. and fall.

I dont understand why,
until one day I figured out.

Im blind in my left eye,
I have scars on my face,
I have burnt marks on my arms,
bruises on my legs,
I have arthritis in my fingers,
I have a birth defect on my lip.
What else can go wrong?

Until one day my mother took me to the hospital.
Please don't say it… PLEASE!
Im begging you!
I'm on stage two heart cancer…
Life can't get any worse.

My life is ruined.
Everything has gone wrong?
All I think is..
why me?
Couldn't it been someone else?
I have to remember…
God gave this to me because he knew that I could handle it.

My daddy told me that God gave this to me because I am strong.
My faith will never burn to ashes,
I will always believe there is a God.
Because one day,
I will join him.

I cant give up,
one day everything will get better,
well… you see that's what my mommy told me.

Until one day..
I was walking to class,
and suddenly ..
I fell.

Everything is rushing!
Cmon get her there as fast as you can!
someone shouted!
Its the end.

Woah.. wait.. where am I?
Is it over?
This can't be happening now,
I cant give up.

I appeared in a white room,
everyone was happy,
and I.. I was healthy.

Wait who are you?
Are you the one waiting for me?
Are you the one suppose to be at the gate like my mommy told me?
No.. this cant be... dont take me yet!
Im not ready..
I'm not a quitter..

1..2..3.. CLEAR!
Then suddenly I was awake.
There my mom was.. sitting next to me all along.
she told me my heart stopped,
from the cancer...

Now I begin to think..
this is coming to an end.

They scheduled an emergency surgery,
I..
I.. can't talk about this anymore.