If I ever lose you I know my life would be hell.
Living without you would tear me into tiny, little pieces
Not having you in my life would seriously suck!
I can’t even imagine a life without you.
Just imaging you lying 6 feet deep in a hole for the rest of eternity,
makes me want to break down and cry.
I want to break down and cry and never ever stop!
Crying won’t help my pain go away,
it will only make me sadder.
But when I imagine a world without you,
it is truly worth being sad for the rest of my life.
Me being sad for the rest of my life is not even half the pain you went through.
You endured so much pain during your life, that it is not even fair!!!
Why did God have to put all this pain on you?
Couldn’t he put it on someone else?
If I could, I would take more than half of your pain and put it on myself.
Taking your pain away from you would make me feel all your pain.
But me feeling all your pain truly makes me so happy.
For you to not live in pain anymore,
is the wish I make everytime I see a shooting star dancing through the sky.
It is the beginning and ending of my every prayer,
and it is the last thing I think of before I go to sleep every night.
When I was little I used to think you were invincible.
But I saw you almost die,
and then again another two times.
After that I didn’t believe that there was a God.
I didn’t think that one man could put you through so much pain.
I never wanted to get out of bed,
but I knew you wanted me to.
I visit you everyday and never leave without giving you a hug and kiss.
Every time I see you smile, I begin to believe that God is with us in our moments.
God has a reason for everything He does.
If God’s reasoning to not making you feel well,
is that one day you will live in no pain,
I guess I am okay with it.
I love you from now until forever.