It's done and I took them,

with no proof left behind,

of what I had done,

of what was always on my mind.

Some days were good,

and some were bad.

Some were worse,

and created the worst thoughts I've ever had.

This day was worse,

I couldn't control it,

and nobody knows

how long I fought to get through it.

I kept telling myself,

to do it for him, or for her

but then I'd be engulfed

by the darkness's thick black fur.

School was no better,

I failed every test

and nobody saw

that dreadful pain in my chest.

That last day

of when you saw me smile

would be the very last day that you saw me

for a very long while.

5:30 am, get up,

get hair and makeup done,

though what's the point

when school is never any fun?

Go to class,

fail a test,

while I'm just thinking

of how my blood will make a mess.

My friends smile and wave,

and I smile back,

while I restrain my hands

from causing an attack.

my neck so vulnerable,

my wrists so open,

so many choices,

I'll needa rope to hang my neck in.

Lunch ends

and friends wonder whats wrong,

when even in my head,

the lyrics never seem to make the right song.

You think I'm crazy,

and yet this might be true,

no one will see my suffering,

until my life has passed through.

Last period,

see my love,

don't say a word,

no even a coo like a dove.

One last hug,

one very last kiss,

one last touch,

something I know I will miss.

I go home,

and I look at those pills.

They can make pain subside,

or they can have the power to kill.

I count one, two,

maybe 10, probably 20,

when I know my life isn't worth this much,

not even a single penny.

One single life,

what can it do,

soon it will all be over,

and you'll find somebody new.

Someone you can hold,

someone you can kiss,

someone whos mind

won't slip into a dark abyss.

It's better this way,

don't you see?

That your life will be better

when it doesn't include me.

Oh stop delaying,

just take it and die,

but I need to make this a good one,

one very last goodbye.

Goodbye to my troubles,

goodbye to my sorrows,

i will not see you in the breaking light

of the dawn of tomorrow.

Hello sweet gates,

hello sweet bliss,

hello eternal peace,

in such a place as this.

I see it,

that white light.

no more pain,

and no more fights.

No more hate,

and no more nights

where this isn't my last

forever goodnight. 

one by one,

each pill will lead the way,

to where there is no misery

and it will take me away.

I took them and I died,

with no proff left behind,

to say that they could've saved me,

from something that never left my mind.