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We're Not Having That Conversation

March 30, 2015
By NoirKitty16 BRONZE, Boston, Massachusetts
NoirKitty16 BRONZE, Boston, Massachusetts
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We’re not having that conversation
Where you tell me you have a girlfriend
Where you tell me it just happened
That it was bound to happen

 

We’re not having that conversation
Where you tell me you like her more
Than you like me
That you’ve known her longer
Well, we never really did have much time, did we?

 

We’re not having that conversation
Where you tell me you don’t feel the way I feel
That I still feel
That I’ll always feel
About you


We’re not having that conversation
Where what happened in the past is taboo
Where you make decisions about how I should feel about
You

 

We’re not having that conversation
Where I say that I’m fine with being just friends
Because we both know that I’m not
Because I’m lying
Because I never will be

 

We’re not having that conversation
Where you say there wasn’t enough time,
For us to have been anything more
Or for us to feel more

 

But you never gave me time
Not enough anyway

 

Because I know better
I knew better

 

Than to have connected with you where I did
To have connected with you when I did
To have connected with you

 

I connected with you in a way with other people that I don’t
In a way that I won’t
Because they don’t deserve to see all of me like you do

 

But you never gave me much of a chance
To show you all of me
To know all of me

 

To love all of me

 

So we’re not having that conversation
We’re never having that conversation


The author's comments:

So I wrote, er, more like came up with  this because I'm basically suffering from unrequited love. I've been on the other side of the spectrum, so Iknow what it feels like to have someone you're just not interested in at all, like you. However, with this guy, let's call him X, we actually had a connection. I went on this group ski trip with him and at first, he seemed like someone I'd just want to be friends with. Then we got close and at the end of trip (3 days by the way, like how am I supposed to make new friends in that time?) and I wanted to see where this would go just in general. We don't live near each ther, so we always just text. After a week of flirting and bad playing hard to get on my part, he decided that we should just be friends. I wasn't ok with that because I had developed a deep conncetion with him that he basically disregarded. I have a feeling it's because there was another girl he had his eye on before he met me. Then today I said something about how he always thought I was cute and he pulled one of those "about that" sentences. I stopped him before he could say anything more on it, but I knew then and there that our relationship had changed. So, I had to get this out before I forgot or before it was irrelevant.


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