I used to say "I love you"

To everyone around me

I'd wrap my arms around them

And hold on to them tightly.

Every holiday I'd slave away

To make every person a card

With pictures and notes that would say

"I love you" in all sorts of ways.

I used to play and ride bikes with friends

And I never questioned anything

Until death introduced itself

At the latest time of spring.

I was emotionally reborn from my fathers ashes

But the dark marks of the ash stained me

My heart was closed and my mind too open

And now i feel nothing but crazy.

A little girl who once gave so much affection

Grew up to attract only nevative attention.

"She's the one who's father died" and "Her mother was recently beaten"

Were definitions of a girl who's spirit feels defeated.

Once so alive and now reborn to die,

The girl turned into a woman who's light faded from her eyes.

Who once was a gift from a god no longer known

Is now a simple being who feels completely alone.