Your eyes used to shine.
You used to laugh and sing, your voice rang through the halls and bounced off of the walls. you were alive. What happened, babe? the light drained from your eyes just like the life drained from your body.
drip
drip
drip
the pearls of crimson dyed the soft soft carpet, creating a mural of what once was. we sat on that carpet together. we held hands like innocent children, exchanged kisses like newlyweds. I believed it would last forever. What happened, babe? I stole your happiness. you poured every ounce of your being into making me feel loved. I stole your happiness. you held me close and dried my eyes when the darkness was out to get me, when I felt the walls closing in. I stole your happiness. You gave me everything you possibly could and what did I do? I stole your happiness. I know it's cliché but, if I could turn back the hands of time, if I could rewind every time I caused you pain and said that you were to blame, I would. I'd take it all back in a heartbeat. I'd do anything to once again feel your skin pressed against mine. I would run my fingers down your spine, trace your beautiful imperfections, breathe you in. I want you back more than anything.

Your eyes used to sparkle.
You used to dance to the beat of your heart, every beautiful movement a work of art. You were alive. What happened, babe? The sparkle died just like you did.
bang
bang
bang
the sound of the gunshots that pierced through your
soft skin, through you. I held you in my arms like a newborn child, pressed kisses to your lifeless form. I believed we would last forever. What happened, babe? I stole your life. I let jealousy and rage fill every ounce of my being. I stole your life. My hands found the trigger. I stole your life. It was an accident, I swear. I stole your life. I know it's cliché but, if I could turn back the hands of time, if I could rewind that moment, I would. I'd take it all back in a heartbeat. I'd do anything to once again feel your warmth. I would hold you close, trace the pulse in your wrist, breathe you in. I want you back more than anything.

~A