I don't blame you for
Ignoring my cries for help.
I know that pain can
Be too much sometimes,
And I wouldn't want you
to have to feel my pain,
This is too much for anybody
To have to have to feel.
So I don't blame you for
Just leaving my cries unanswered.

I don't hate you for
Not questioning the suspicious
behavior he had sometimes,
because knowing would
mean having to ask questions
which would also mean taking action;
while fearing you were doing the
Wrong thing because I'm still in pain,
And you shouldn't ask questions
You don't want to know the answer to.
So I don't hate you for
not asking those questions burning inside you.

I don't blame you for
Just accepting things the way
They have always been.
Change isn't always wanted
And love is something
That should never change
Who could have know that
Just letting him stay that
close to me
that it would have gone
that far.
So I don't blame you for
Just letting it be.

I'm sorry momma
Don't feel bad that I
can help you but you
Can't help me because
You never saw the signs
Or heard me calling out for you.

I'm sorry momma
I forgive you for not
protecting me the way you used to.
It didn't hurt that long
I swear.
I am resilient but
My heart is so fickle.

I'm sorry momma
Please don't cry,
I can't take anymore tears
And this silence is too much.
Momma please say something
Don't just let it be.

I'm sorry momma
But it's too late now
You can hold me all you
Want but I'm gone.

Don't blame yourself
You didn't know;
I made sure you didn't,
So you'd never have to feel
my pain with me.

Don't hate yourself
I've spent too many years
Doing that and I don't
Want you to end up like me.

Don't lose yourself momma
I still love you.
And one day we'll be
Together I promise.

Don't cry momma
This was all my fault
I should have know better.
How could we both have been
So naive?
I'm sorry momma,
But now I'm finally free...