Where did all of those days go?
Those long summer days spent in that haze
That I can’t remember.
I reach far back and grasp
At the still frames suspended in my mind.


Try once, twice,
And once more.
Isolating your face
Among the crowd of thought
Is something I can never do.


When did I start forgetting?
The curve of your lips as you said my name
Is gone forever.
I can only hear your voice
And somehow even that has become meaningless.


Try once, twice,
Ten more times.
I bet you would laugh
If you could see me here
Struggling to sleep even still.


What can I compare this to?
Nothing I know can describe this feeling
Of being empty.
The hole torn in my chest—I guess it’s sort of like
The hole inside of a doughnut.


Try once, twice,
A thousand times.
This feeling is clawing, it hurts
To the point of breaking,
And there’s nothing I can do.


How could I ever feel relief?
There has to be something, anything
To fill me with.
When I think of all the small things
It just becomes even more impossible.


Try once, twice,
And endlessly on.
Goodbye now, farewell,
Even as I continue to grasp
For just your name.


Until one day,
When a single sound rips up
The remaining shreds of my heart.
I open my eyes to a new and dazzling light.
Your name is—