They sit us down at the living room table
Fear strikes straight into my heart
"This is so much like last time."
I think.
"But no," I tell myself,
"No, this can't be happening.
"Not again."
And my dad says. "Go ahead."
And I know. I just know.
I think my brothers' do too
Because tears start
Rolling down their cheeks as
My mother begins
"Everything I did,
"It just wasn't enough." She finally says.
I bite my lip to keep from crying.
I have to stay strong
For my mom
For my dad
For Michael and Daniel
Who have to leave everyone
They love, again
Everything she did?
The school doesn't recognize
14 hour days
My mom pouring her
Heart and soul
Into this job and it just wasn't enough?
I start worrying
What does this mean
For finances
For my grades
My credits?
Oh God, how am I going
To tell people?
How am I going to tell my friends
That I won't be here next year?
That I can't go to prom with them?
I won't graduate with them
My parents try to focus on the good
"This school is five times bigger."
Yay, more chances for me to get
Lost in the crowd
"There's more opportunities!"
As if I didn't already have
Enough on my plate
"You knew how much
"Tonight meant to me." I say
Almost accusingly.
"We know and we're sorry."
I don't know if that's
Good enough