You were always there to guide me.
You said you were there for me.
You said until the end and until death do us part because we were best friends.
You said that you would cry if I died but dear I know you’d do your best to hide a smile.

You’re so addicted to yourself and how you feel.
You can’t be alone, even when you’re in a crowded room.
It’s not like you to quiet on command.
Yet it’s so like you to walk away.

Driving to your grave put me at a halt because I know you lasted longer than I did.
Sitting at your feet brought me to tears because you’re still stronger than me.
Laying down the roses made my hand quiver because I swear I felt your hand touch mine.
Kicking stones on the way back home because I should have said goodbye.

I won’t be like you because you’re gone.
I won’t be like you because you’re a liar.
I won’t be like you because you never mean what you say.
I won’t be like you because you’re filled with a black soul and a sick heart and you never let me in.

My idea of being with you is a shadow filled nightmare that haunts my sleep and buries me in a forever darkness.
My idea of you leaving, blankets me in a depression that cools my heart and wrenches my soul.
You’ve made such a fool of me, making me believe I meant everything to you.
I make my own decisions and I know because the worst one was falling for you.

I’m aging with the thought that you’ll never come back.
I’m caving at the thought you still have my heart, yet I still have a heart attack.
I’m lonely because I no longer know what’s holy.
Next time someone points a finger, pointing out the flaws, limbs will fall and I shall crawl.

You were always there to guide me.
You said you were there for me.
You said until the end and until death do us part because we were best friends.
You said that you would cry if I died but dear I know you’d do your best to hide a smile.

Smile on, love.