they expect the best
out of somebody who was
born from the lesser
(i roam
the cobble streets
hands frozen
inside my jacket)

i'm not sure what my best is
anymore
how should i know
(you never taught me
you just called me
out)
im a child
but i'm not
i act like an adult
But i'm not

I'm not sure why I have an old soul
(An old mind)
(a young body except for the scars)
(young heart except for when you need it)

all i know is how
i'm bleeding alone on a bathroom floor
(due to "'your love'")
the tiles that are called life
(i would calcuate how fast
i would die from the blood lost
but as youve always said,
i was never good at math)

i am wasted
on the alcohol
you gave and bought
(me, it might numb me)
the lies you tell
(to keep me here, wrapped around your rusted finger)
the expectations i have to uphold

i want to be alone
(my heart aches
i'm scared)
i want somebody besides myself
to care
(care even when i didnt get an A on A test)
(But I can't)
(suceed)
i can't care about myself or
somebody else
(alone is the only thing ill ever know)
i only care about

expectations.