It’s hard to tell if this decision
will affect the rest of my life, or not.
All of these emotions inside of me,
encapsulated and growing,
make me unsure if it is all real,
or something I have created in my mind.
When I think of the future,
I see you, standing next to me.
My rock, my love, my best friend.
Finally, after all this time,
I have changed, but I don’t know
if I am ready to admit it yet.
So for now, I will keep a secret,
locked away in my subconscious mind,
roaming the depths of my soul.
Waiting, watching, listening,
for a sign, any sign at all,
that the feeling is mutual.
Because it is often that small,
lingering, glimmer of hope
that keeps the heart beating,
the mind buzzing,
and the soul expanding.
I don’t know where I will go from here,
but I can only hope to, one day,
share this with you, so that, maybe,
just maybe, you can understand.
It is you that turns darkness to light.
You that utters the delicate words,
the ones that raise my spirits.
You that feels, and sees, and knows.
You that showcases my true self.
And that is the greatest gift of all.
So, when I’m ready, you will know.
I will pray, ponder, and peruse
everything that makes me feel this way.
I will do everything in my power,
I solve this riddle, to break this rhyme,
and to finally understand,
why you.