We all grow up and come to realize
that life is much more complex than it may seem.
And that feeling of realization comes when
we all grow through this period of hardship and sacrifice.
Then the whole world seems to crumble and fall
and it seems as if no one can save you.

It happened when I was ten. It is something that some of you
probably went through and did not realize.
But it is alright because it didn’t seem
obvious to me either at the place and time when
it occurred. I just thought that I was a lamb they were going to sacrifice
in order to prevent their own fall.

It was a beautiful day in Fall.
Well, it seemed like that to me and maybe to you
too. Until I came home to realize
that home didn’t feel like how it would normally seem
to me. It all happened too quick, when
my mother bursted out crying, pointing out to my father the sacrifices she made.

She then packed her bag and left us, sacrificing
the last bit of sanity when
she left. And for the first time, my father seemed
flabbergasted. That he even started to cry when he realized
what just happened. He said to me, “What are we going to do with you?”.
I headed straight to my bedroom, shocked, and when I walked, I fell.

Crying into my blankets seemed to be an effective coping method when
my mother left, which to a little girl seems
like the end of the world. But while crying, I realized
that crying is useless, it does not help you.
And then I thought, the best way to help is to wait for the tension to fall.
Although, that requires patience, which is something that I don’t have the ability to sacrifice.
Weeks past, the tension did not seem
to want to leave. But then we came to realize
that she will never come home. Unless you
went to look for her first and fall
on your knees begging her to come home, your pride being sacrificed.
Then my mother came home, only through my father’s begging that was when.

Sorry, if to you, this seem like no sacrifice.
But one day when you fall,
like we did, you will realize.