I can’t remember what it is like to look into your eyes and say I love you.
To walk up to you and hold your soft warm hands and smile every time I hear you laugh.
The way you pull me close, softly touched face and told me it’s going to be all right.
How you wiped the tears off my face and sang to me softly.
Then when the wind flew through my hair and you just looked at me and smiled.
It’s so hard to feel that you love me when were so far apart but you still try to make it work.
Like how you told me before I left.
When you held my waist gently your voice shaky and you said to me “I know this will work.”
Then you smile at me trying to brighten up the mood but when that time ends its gets cold like snow on your skin then it starts to get dark while I just break down knowing that I won’t see him in a long time.
Then you let go of my hand walking away trying not to cry but when you know you’re far enough you let it all go and cry.
I miss how I feel around you and how you make me feel like I have no problems to worry about.
I miss everything about you.
Then you send me those letters and I just cry while I read them because I know that you’re still here with me and that you haven’t given up yet.
Then I could just feel all those memories flashing back to me and I just smile.
Come to think of it I guess I still do remember.