We spoke today.

Not verbally, not face to face, but emotionally.

I speak to you every single day with no response,

No act of acknowledgement, no answer, silence

Silence in a way that cuts away at my belief of your existence

Day and night, sunrise to sunset I continue to listen but there's nothing.

They say you’re always looking down on me, protecting me, comforting me
But I’ll never understand your reasoning
For me and my life
Why I am struggling?
Why are you watching me struggle?
As I cry myself to sleep at night trying to release my inner anger and distress
I think of you,
In attempt to understand your thinking.
They also say you’ll never give me more then you believe I can handle
But look at me through your godly eyes
I’m a mess , I’m torn apart by the fate you have given me.
I wonder if you’re actually up there sometimes
Watching over me from heaven
Or are you just mythical
Just something to give us strength to have beliefs that we are never alone
But the truth is we are alone
We are always alone,
Well I mean I am.
I just wanted to feel your comforting arms holding me as I fell to sleep
But I’m not sure about your existence or why you’re not showing up in my life
You spoke to me loud and clear tonight
You’re fading away from my beliefs
And tonight,
Tonight is the last time we ever spoke.