As a child I didn’t know
Why you were gone
In my innocence, all I knew is you left me

I remember always asking,
Where’s my daddy?

To think of all the time wasted
Those restless nights, bawling
Awaiting your arrival
Contemplating
What could I have done wrong to deserve this?
Only to realize
I had to accept it
You were gone forever

Not knowing
Where you were
Why you left
It felt like my fault

All those father’s day cards
I saved for you
Hoping one day you’d come back
Made and wasted
Destroyed by my tears

I knew you wouldn’t come back
What was the point?

To ease the pain
I forgot about you
Even learned to hate you
I struggled but made it through
Although, from time to time
I would still think
How could you have left me?

I was done waiting around
What a stupid little girl I was
To think you would come back
To think you actually cared
It was all a lie

That dreaded day
You came back
I don’t need you
I like to pretend you don’t exist
I’d be happier without you

Knowing the reason you came back
Not for me
But for money issues
Go to hell
I needed you before
Now that I’m grown up
I don’t need you

I know you’re supposed to forgive
But I can’t find it in my heart
to forgive what you’ve done

What did my mother see in you?
You’re a useless, sad of an excuse human being
Irresponsible
I’m embarrassed to call you my father
I have no father
Do us all a favor and leave
Leave, like you did once before