There roles around the loss of your first

Knowing that deep down another comes first.

You move in confusion with time flying by,

You grieve the recent one just a little more this time.

Yet remembering the one right before

You say to yourself which one comes first?

I say I miss u, but I miss u a little more.

The envy lacks the strike kicks back,

It’s a void, but increased even more.

The pain kicks in right here right there 

Up there down here 

At last everywhere.

But the void is still in bare,

No love nor fear could bring them back.

Just know one day the end kicks back,

The constant wanting the constant knowing

Even more near than an ounce over here.

They say a loss is like a scar,

You carry it around

But still see the mark.

You know their not here

But their stuff is near

And so they are near

Ounce more in here.

The righteous path is my faith in God

No one nor thing could break my back.

Take me back to my little self,

The constant feeling of dreading in time.

Now here I am carrying the scars 

Carrying them proudly 

Carrying them on.

You still feel still near still see still sincere 

My two guardian angels right by me

With me right here.

You see to carry on carry on with a purpose 

Prove them wrong 

Do it for you and do it for them 

For as long as you've got God

You have nothing to fear

Indeed the day will come 

To see them near 

And I will pray 

Pray that I can

See them in heaven once again.