i am the default crush
because it's when everyone leaves you
you realize i'll always wait

yet you seem to forget that
when you get used to me and
expect that love from other people who can't
deal with how little you actually care.
because your caring is fleeting
and you prefer using.

i'm pretty enough for the job of the default crush
but there's nothing special about me
i lack personality
too overwhelming to sit in the background
so maybe that's why it's so easy
for you to leave.

and other girls tire of your
treatment after long
leaving you broken and alone
and who do you go to to pick up the pieces?
me.

maybe i shouldn't put up with you
either but i
somehow always do.

so i sit here waiting for you to come back
not knowing whether you will or not
this time.
not knowing if i'll say no or not
this time.

only knowing you ran to another girl
AGAIN.
because all i am is the default crush.
and maybe the only reason i'm in the story
is to be used.