I learned the hard way

Not to trust too deeply 

To love too fondly 

To hug too closely

Open up just enough, but never that they see your cracks under the surface

Let them see the first layer of the onion but never the rest

Keep everything down so deep

No one, can ever 

See your pain 

Feel your anger 

Or Look through your lies 

They say the eyes are windows to the soul 

But are they?

When I look into my eyes all I see is darkness 

A soul so tattered, so broken 

Unable to shed a tear 

Unable to see the light 

Unable to open that closed door 

I try to fly 

Fly free like a bird 

Drifting through the wind 

With no worries or cares 

But when your that free,

Who can you be close to?

Leaving a place so frequently, 

Migrating over seas, mountains and grassy fields 

With no home to return to 

Always on the run with no end in sight 

I learned the hard way

Insecurities push me 

farther 

And 

Farther away 

Locking the door behind me 

Disappearing into a dark room 

All alone.