With the endless variables in my life,

one thing was a constant-

the game I had learned to love so dearly.

It was more than just a sport.

I envisioned my future perfectly clear.

I saw the field as my outlet

A place of freedom,

A place where judgment was nonexistent

A place filled with happiness

The game provided me with the feelings I lacked,

A feeling of success

A feeling of security

A feeling of purpose

What more could I gain?

The answer was nothing.

Who knew one day it would disappear so quickly?

From the sideline, I watch all of the action,

the action I had once been a part of

I went from everything to nothing

I went from being someone to being no one  

It was all gone, in the blink of an eye

Life is now a blur

I miss feeling success

I miss feeling secure

I miss feeling purposeful

I lay in bed without a reason to get up

I was ignorant,

ignorant to think life could be so perfect

I have failed in the only way I’ve ever found success,

And these emotions have all just hit me

What more is left for me?

The answer is,

A new start,

A new dream,

A new future.