Anxiety sucks.

There really isn’t much else to say

I don’t understand how so many people struggle with it

But we are all still embarrassed to talk about it

It shouldn’t be something we are ashamed of

It should be something we can ask for help with

Without feeling judgment

Why should I feel shame while struggling through

An anxiety attack

Why should I feel shame

When I can’t push myself to raise my hand in class

The embarrassment is part

Of what makes it so hard to improve

How am I supposed to

Push myself

If I have to feel ashamed

Anytime my anxiety shows

And I do want to improve

Don’t get me wrong

I’ve come a long way

But it’s nothing

To where I want to go

I want to be able to say hi to people in the hallway

Without over thinking if they actually like me

I want to be able to play a game of soccer without feeling like I let 

everyone down when I miss the ball

I want to be able to feel comfortable in a store 

and buy something by myself

I want to be able to make conversation with a person

While actually looking at their face

I want to be

Happy

Happier

These are all things that a lot of people struggle with

These are all goals that a lot of people have

So why are we all still ashamed?

Why is there this never ending cycle of embarrassment and bullsh*t?

Well

I refuse to continue on this cycle

I have anxiety

I struggle sometimes

and that’s okay

I love who I am

I am improving

and I am not ashamed anymore.