I hear the rain drops as they fall

 One 

By one

By one 

By one

I hear them thundering in my ears

As though it isn't tiny drops of water

But giant boulders 

Falling from the sky

I risk walking outside

And when i do

I feel them falling on the top of my head

I feel myself become weighted down by each and every one

Soon enough the weight becomes too much

And i am screaming and begging for help

But no one will come 

No one is listening

It is only then that i realize

There is no noise coming out of my mouth

The screaming, the shouting, the begging 

Is all in my head

The boulders falling on my head are once again tiny raindrops

The water coating my face now tastes salty

And i can't help but wonder

When did I start crying?

I hear the thundering in my ears again

But this time it is not the rain

It is the sound of my heartbeat

As loud as horses on the track

I wonder if the rain was ever as loud as i thought

Or if i had been using it to mask the noise of my mind the whole time

I wonder if the rain was weighing me down

 Or if it was simply the pain of my past pinning me to the ground.