For questioning, the why didn’t you call? and why couldn’t you make it? 

For complaining about the  disposable vapes that I fear will dispose you of oxygen

The alcohol that runs through an empty stomach overwhelming your liver and wiping you of last nights memory. 

The small bites out of your five guys, hours without an appetite that leave you face down on the toilet seat.

The excessive talking that has burnt our minds and dried our mouths. 

My mind builds a wall of cinder blocks made up of excessive thoughts that hide from the truth.

When the truth is that you never complain, question, or talk excessively. 

You carry a smile and open your arms so that I lay my head on your chest and give my thoughts a chance to rest. 

I give myself too much time to think, planting my thoughts and feeding them ideas in which they expand into branches that become thick and strong.

You’re my first lover and I don't want to lose my source of happiness as friends become distant and midwest weather imprisons me from my never ending love of the outdoors.

You are my first and im sorry you’ll have to go through an emotional

roller coaster but soon the ride will end. 

Being in a relationship is like walking all over again but i promise that i will continue to move ourselves forward even if i'll have to follow you crawling on the floor.

But know that If I never questioned, complained, and talked. 

I wouldn’t care about you as much as I do. 

Arms open wide so you may come rest your thoughts on my shoulders too.

You are my best friend first, my girlfriend second and it’s something I never want to lose.