It’s the embarrassing moment when your stomach growls in a silent room

It’s feeling hopeless because you can’t lose weight

It’s crying as you throw up your pain

It’s headaches and fainting out of the blue

It’s hating yourself for not being pretty enough

It’s awkward guilt when they tell you to eat more

It’s crying in the mirror at your own stomach

It’s the haunted mind, filled with ghosts of your flesh

It’s force-feeding yourself for staring eyes

It’s tasting only cardboard and flavorless lies

It’s feeling as if you're not good enough

It’s staying up with an empty stomach 

It’s measuring yourself obsessively

It’s freezing in the summer 

It’s forgetting how to eat

It’s hell, but heavenly.