I didn’t recognize how often you lingered in my mind 

The thought of you in my head appeared so divine 

This handsome mysterious soul I was yet to meet 

Didn’t know you’d leave me for ransom and feeling of defeat 

Your brown hair and gazing hazel eyes it was obvious a relationship with you was setup for demise 

Your personality trait was an egoistic wall

My empathetic heart was wishing for it to fall 

Our eyes lock on the first meet 

I know the day I laid eyes on you is the day you’d sweep me off my feet 

We both knew we can make our hearts melt 

But only one of us can accept the realization of what was felt 

I see the box you lock your past and emotions in 

I did not have a key to open you up so I used a Bobby pin

We didn’t have the most perfect first impression

For we acted out our admiration with lusty aggression 

Your eyes spoke to me screaming in pain 

My desire to save you only left me in vain 

You didn’t allow me to give you the second chance I wanted 

But after everything the memories left us both haunted 

I never meant to ruin you but you left me no choice 

I had to stand up for myself and raise my voice 

What else was I supposed to do 

I knew you planned for us to continue 

But after you knew what I had done it was final, we had been through 

A closing chapter of what we both didn’t want to end 

For all there is to blame is us diving off the deep end 

Neither of us start with baby steps to progress 

Which is why our relationships always end up a mess

Our hearts consisted of betrayal and distress 

We were incapable on filling each others voids, nonetheless 

Next time maybe it’s your emotions you should express 

Not your desire to dive into me with your mind on lust

That’s how you turn a good opportunity we had quickly to dust 

I brushed off the dirt you left me in and walked away 

But at the end of the day you were the one ashamed 

Not by choice but used by force 

For I was not the one who got away but the one who made you feel remorse 

I am not one to be played or used like the others 

You left trauma in the minds of future beautiful mothers

Lust and substance is what you crave 

At the end you have nothing to save 

I heard your life story and I know what you're about 

But your lack of human empathy leaves you emotionally in drought 

I wanted to save you and allow you to see 

That life doesn’t have to be this hard, take my hand, come with me

But you didn’t have to look far to see where the problem was coming from 

You wonder what stands in your way, you are the only one 

The train has left, the opportunity escaped 

I just hope I don’t leave you lying at night wide awake 

For that is what you've done to me when I try to erase our memories 

I question if I’d ever hear back or receive any apologies 

For my last response to you was a public attack 

A heartless beast I gained a connection with 

Your untamed mind is not one I should’ve reckoned with 

So you go your way and I go mine 

But just know the thought of you continues to linger in my mind