They say that the sad is good

Its when the emotions disappear from view that you should be worried

How do I tell them?

They say that they understand

Or that its a simple phase

“Part of being a teenager,” they say

But my friends think I’m insane

If it is truly a phase

Why am I the only one in it?

When you wake up in the middle of the night 

Heart racing, breath shaking, and feeling the walls collapse in

They blame it on the phones and the meds that never seem to work

Anything but themselves.

When you can’t take it anymore its just drama

An attention-seeking kid

Nothing more

If they face the truth they have to face the blame

And that will never happen

Because the highs used to be a lows

And the lows are so far down it seems impossible to get back up 

But it can’t be true 

I’m too young to feel all this

To privileged

To smart

So it must be a lie

right?