If you were a color, you’d be a bright shade of blue.

Like a warm spring day, 

when the breeze gushes through branches of trees,

and the grass sways with the gusts of bare footsteps.

Your color would be calm,

it would be like the wings of a bird.

Like a waterfall running down from a mountain peak.

Your color has speckles of sadness dribbled into it,

like the freckles on your face. 

it’s also soft like the skin under your arms,

but has sharp edges like spikes in your hair.

Your color is warm like the days when we would run around in the mud,

When we jumped in piles of crinkled Autumn leaves.

I wish your color would stay with me forever.

I wish I could have your color when I have to take a test in school,

or when I dress in the morning.

I wish it was my color.

I wish I could be calm and tranquil as you are.

I wish I could have confidence bursting through the floors as I walk into a building.

I wish I had the love you have locked in your heart,

the everlasting bonds you connect with the people you meet.

I wish I still had an innocent mind as you do.

I wish I wasn’t exposed to violence 

I’ve been in a neverending war with my emotions.

The colors of my battlefield are dark shades of purple,

like the smell of black coffee brewing in the morning.

They have sharp edges like spears,

and tons of tiny holes in them like Swiss cheese.

They’re cracked like the sound of my voice when I dream of nightmares.

Though, when I’m alone,

my name has a dusting of bright orange.

Like the dawn rising up past hills on a summer day,

Or baskets of fruits.

When I’m with you, my color is bright and filled with

Rich light and blossoming daisies.

But lately, we’ve been growing apart.

The wall between us is filled with remorse and hatred.

We’ve put our screens as a higher ranking then each other,

And now you’re not my number one.

Now, we don’t talk or play outside.

We don’t sleep in the same room or hug.

We don’t take bubble baths together or draw.

We don’t watch our favorite cartoons on the weekend,

Or eat breakfast together at 7 a.m. in the morning.

Sometimes, I want to hug you.

I want to watch cartoons with you again,

I want to roll around in mud and be carefree once more,

But I know, 

Things won’t be the same between us again. 

Dear Brother,

You’ve gone through life’s many barriers with a smile,

You’ve become my inspiration.

You are my knight,

You’ve never left my side.

Dear Brother,

Even though we have differences;

You’ll always be a big part of my life.