I told myself I was in love with you

I told myself I wanted you 

I told myself that your toxic habits were just you coping 

I told myself it was okay everytime you'd tear me apart 

You told yourself you wanted me 

You told yourself "Just three more weeks" 

You told yourself you wanted me

But you never told yourself you loved me 

So you found what you wanted inside another girl

We didn’t love each other but we tried 

We tried dates

We tried talking it out 

We tried all those couple things

We tried to love each other

We couldn’t 

I couldn’t love someone like you

You couldn’t love someone like me  

You couldn’t break up with me

You were too afraid of being alone

I was too afraid of what you’d do if you were alone 

It’s true we cared

In our own toxic way we cared for each other 

We were always better friends than lovers 

I told myself I wanted to be with you 

But I did not tell myself that it was okay if I wasn’t