staring at a blank screen
trying to conjure up a feeling
any feeling
than the dull ache that's consumed me
like silence is the absence of sound
and darkness is the absence of light
this is what I feel when there is nothing else to feel
in the silent darkness of my room
late at night
when I'm supposed to be asleep
How have almost 4 months passed
and your death is only starting to set in?
A stone slowly sinking to the bottom of the sea
it's still making its way down
I miss you
that much is true
It's agonizing
Knowing you were here a few months ago
and now you are gone
I thought magic wasn't real
so how are you able to disappear like that?
I love you
and I know that you are with me
wherever you are
whether it be in the ground or the sky
You never truly appreciate it until it's gone
I learned that that hard way
Because now that your gone
The only thing I want is for you to come back
Unread emails
filling your inbox
unshed tears
filling my chest
unspoken words
bubbling over
words like Goodbye
long forgotten regrets
egging on the familiar ache
Please come back
Please