I was excited, so very excited

Now I don't understand why.

Always stressing over work and people.

I wish it was summer again.

Ninth grade, the easiest year I think

But everyone looks and treats you look like a toddler

Yet you're still expected to act grown

But some girls too grown, but that's them.

I thought tenth grade fresh start,

New year it will be different.

Oh how I was wrong, it stayed the same.

The same girls, the same drama, the same

problems, nothing new...

Trying to get through this day annoyed 

by teachers who look at me wrong when

I'm in the hall or bathroom because my past,

And trying to do work that I simply don't understand.

"She's a d**e now" he says,

"You awake there bud?"

Happy with myself trying

to ignore others who I just

Don't want to deal with.

What can I say, high school is

not what i expected, I came in

with a different mindset than now

and I'm only half way there.