Your Words

Your words, your words

They spread like a wildfire

Destructive words wrapping around me like wires

I’m too nice, I’m too mean

I’m too quiet, it makes me scream

Until my misery is part of your everyday routine

Your words burning down my confidence, my courage, my pride

Eyes following my every move

My every stride

Words you say to break me down

So I’m wearing the apron, and you’re wearing the crown

I’m too small, I’m too tall

I’m too dumb, but you’ve got it all

Words you say trapping me, surrounding me, encasing, belittling, drowning me

Saddening me

Shattering me

Your words, your words,

They echo in my head

Making me question every little thing I've ever said

Am I too nice?

Am I too tall?

I'll pay the price

Itll show them all

Your words engulfing my inner feelings, beliefs, emotions

Transforming my perceptions, ideas, my notions

Until your words start to consume my mind

I see the truth

Your hurtful words make me blind

Your words, your words

Damage the girl

They make my eyes swell

Make my stomach swirl

They’re lying, I’m crying, I’ve completely stopped trying

My voice shaking, confidence breaking

I know I won't be able to keep on faking

Until it’s all out in the open

No walls to hide behind

No helpful people in sight

I’m standing on the line

Hopelessly out of time

Your words, your words continue to occur

Everything's happening in a blur

When will this end? Where’s the cure?

When can I be completely sure?

The cameras flash

People laugh

Everything's falling apart crash

And there’s something I keep wanting to ask

Would it be easier if I just wasn’t here

I could drown myself with my sorrows

Until there’s no tomorrow

I could take the bullet from your mouth

And wait for myself to fizzle out

I could swallow my pain along with the pills

And start to climb one final hill

I could hang from the sky

For one final goodbye

I could…