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a broken boy

December 14, 2018
By drahcir-swims GOLD, Highland Park, New Jersey
drahcir-swims GOLD, Highland Park, New Jersey
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days when my eyelids flutter like frail

butterflies straining against

a blustery wind and my face contorts

like cottontail rabbits shuddering from the drugs

sliding down their gullet and you say

you wished these compulsions were yours—

you want these cruel masters whipping my brain into a bloodied

mess if only to be as smart as me—and my life shrinks

like the dying sun shrinks when the murky

waves of the horizon swallow it each


and my life is but a mothball-ridden costume

because what else is mental

illness good for except





when you drape a still-bloody fur

scarf around your perfume-infused neck you do not

become the mink that scurried

before the rising sun...


days when my passion seeps through my sobbing

veins and puddle around the splintering graphite

of my pencil, curdling on command so that all

my distraught eyes see are lines of wobbling


imperfect like the paranoid, whimpering


that my heart has become as it sprints, its whines

off-pitch, its gait

unsteady, trying to escape the sneers of OCD stamped on

each palpitation but

there is no escaping the fear of contamination and reek of indecisiveness that

was gifted to my beautifully flawed soul, but you do not

understand and so you mock

my ritualistic unzipping of backpacks each day in fear

of forgetting books and religious worship

of soap


days when my heart resigns and my eyes shutter, refusing to

fly this broken-winged airplane spiraling towards

suicide and still i clutch the leaden weight of my fallacious logic as i flail

in the bogs of society and still i feel

the serpent writhing in the folds

of my brain and i finally know who is the



The author's comments:

I hope this piece casts a different, and personal, perspective on mental health. As someone who has struggled with OCD, I find it infuriating that many of my friends still do not understand the unique obstacles that mental illness brings. By better understanding each other, we can build a more supportive society.

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