I hate myself in so many ways,

I hate how i look,

The way I dress,

The way I sound,

The way I open my heart too easily,

How I'm like a fire that gives people warmth,

But when I burn out and need them to light me,

They’re gone.

I hate myself in so many ways,

I hate all of the problems I have,

I hate having flashbacks when guns are mentioned,

I hate the feeling of a 2 ton elephant on my chest and that I could die any second from it,

I hate that my anxiety is so bad that I have to be hospitalized occasionally,

I hate how I’m not allowed to talk about the bad things because they “ don't exist”.

I hate myself in so many ways,

I hate how i'm never enough for anyone,

I hate how people use me as a welcome mat for people to step all over me but I’m not acknowledged,

I hate how looking in the mirror is a constant struggle,

I hate that i'm screaming bloody murder but no one cares to hear me,

I get invested in things that will never work out for me,

I hate how I put positive vibes out and only receive bad.

I hate myself in so many ways,

Hold on,

Scratch that,

I love myself in so many ways,

I am courageous,

I am captivating,

I am ambitious,

I am affectionate,

I am a leader,

I am loveable,

I am me.

Despite the many reasons why I hate myself,

They are all the reasons why i love myself,

They make me unique in my own way,

Deep down we all have these bad thoughts,

but why can’t we turn them into good ones?