Married at 18 doesn't seem to reassuring right?

or is it just me,

making a family wasn't enough for you, 

3 children, one mother not knowing she'd end up doing it one her own,

leaving the youngest to figure it out on her own,

changing  daddys every few years, 

making uo excuses for not going to the father daughters dance at thirteen years old,

letting the word daddy turn into the monster you dont really know,

and you cant say goodbye to what was never there, 

i am thirteen years old, no one to have scare my first boyfriend,

and now im 16 years old looking for that prom picture of the one man that should always be there,

having no father to care about wheather or not ill end up back at home,

almost 20 years old, and i still find myself screaming at the pone 

RING!RING!RING!

why arent you answering the phone,

other children you'll take care of but not your own,

now i'm irritated, 

not a message through out the 20 years just to say high,

to an uploaded picture of your new children that arent even  biologically yours,

it's safe to say that i gave up on my happy ending

getting that permission for a guy to take me as his wife,

but i wont be alone .