One brief moment of desire
May lead to situations more dire.
One instant of resignation
Will completely change my destination.
Longing fort hat Foggy thought
That the Hydrocodone once brought.
Holding the bottle in my palm,
Knowing I am in the wrong.
Back to the first time
I crossed this line.
How innocent I thought it would be,
Not knowing how the Want would plague me.
I've given in to it so many times before,
Will my heart burst with just one more?
I've cheated Death, a careless feat.
One day, he will refuse to be beat.
Just one last pill, can I take that chance?
When the Devil asks, dare I dance?

"Not this time!", comes from inside.
Inside the pills I will no longer hide.
I've been to the highest place they will go,
And from the tip myself I did throw.
Among the sand I landed, barely missing bones
Of those who chose to die, cold and alone.
Their souls beg me, "please swim.
Hurry, before the sun's light gets dim."
The tide is rising, I must go
Before Death's grip again I know.
Jumping in, the water numbs my limbs.
I let my mind reteach me how to swim.
The sea is dark, and vast
But the loneliness is not so fast.
Even alone, I will have the sea
Tumultuous, sure to remind me.
The souls from the sand
Where once I did land
Shriek with a message so stark
It is the North Star of the infinite dark.
Eventually I will find a boat or grow fins,
Confessing the motifs driving my sins.
Even as the stars shut off the light,
In the darkness there is still night.
As long as I can still feel the cold,
I won't let the warmth grow old.
I'll move my frozen limbs and stay
Moving with purpose to a brighter day.
Straight away from the sand
Until I find a better place to land.

I dropped the bottle, closed the door.
Walked away, felt the need no more.
In my head there is just one line,
"Not this time."