Reveille | Teen Ink


September 23, 2009
By ps13795 SILVER, Baguio, Other
ps13795 SILVER, Baguio, Other
9 articles 5 photos 43 comments

I’m going to die soon.

These were the five words your pretty little mouth would utter every time you wanted something very badly. I didn’t know that when I first met you. All I thought—being a silly 15-year-old teenage guy—was that you were one of the prettiest girls I’d ever seen in my life. Do you remember? I was hanging around the beach with my friends when I saw you swimming out in the open blue sea, wearing that white and red polka-dotted one-piece. Later on when I asked, you grimaced and said you hated polka dots—they made you look fat. I didn’t say it that time but I think you looked just right. It’s already been five months since then and I got to know a lot about you. Your favorite color is orange, warm and bright just like your smile. Why don’t you smile anymore? You like frilly and fuzzy stuff, although you don’t want to admit it. You’re filthy rich. You’re a spoiled brat. You scrunch up your nose—in a cute way—whenever it itches. And you’re going to die in three weeks.

That’s the most horrible thing. I only learned about it a week ago when I overheard your family doctor talking to your parents. Your dad sounded grim and your mother sounded like she would faint any minute. I wanted to barge right into the room and tell him he was making a huge mistake. But that wouldn’t change anything, would it? You knew it yourself.

Right now, I’m watching you from the window of your mansion. You’re in the garden arguing with your dad. Things aren’t going your way again. You’re tired of your wheelchair, you say, and you want the brand new model that you saw on TV last night. Your dad keeps shaking his head, saying it’ll just be a waste of money and he’s almost successful in refusing—until you say those five hateful words again: “I’m going to die soon.”

I want to scream. I want to run to you, grab your shoulders and shake some sense into you. My 3rd grade teacher used to repeat over and over again: “If you think you’re going to lose, then you really will.” I want to shout those words to you right now, because you’ve obviously accepted the fact that you’re going to die. I haven’t yet, so please don’t give up. Stop saying those words. They’re starting to appear in my nightmares, torturing me, reminding me of how short my time with you is. I want to get mad at you for giving up so soon, but I can’t. I want to—your head suddenly turns in my direction as if you heard what I was thinking. Now you’re smiling mischievously and rolling your chair towards the door, towards me. Why are you smiling? Why only now? A lump is forming in my throat. I take back what I thought before—you’re not one of the prettiest girls I’d ever seen—no, you’re at the top of the list.

I decide to say them now: those three words that no 15-year-old guy would ever seriously dare to say. Even though you’re the most spoiled brat I’ve ever met. Even though you told me you had a crush on that lifeguard at the beach. Even though you’ll probably laugh at me and tell me I’m being ridiculous. Even though my chest is pounding and I can feel the blood rushing to my head. So I say them. Those three little words that have been in my mind ever since the day I met you. Your jaw drops open and your eyes nearly pop out of your head. I hang my head, feeling my face get hot and my palms get sweaty as I stare at the cold green marble floor. Then I hear your reply. And I raise my head slowly to see if I heard right. Sure enough, your cheeks are as red, if not redder than mine. You come closer, maneuvering your wheelchair, tears in your eyes. I bend down and gently press my lips to your forehead, still dazed by your unexpected reply. We’re lost in our own little world, unaware of the servants and your parents staring at us from different viewpoints. As I pull you closer, memorizing the warmth of your body, I hear you vow never to say those five words again. Now all we can do is pray for a miracle.

The author's comments:
Well, this is my first piece on the site.. The style isn't really original but at the time I thought it up, I guess I didn't really think of anything else. I just let the words flow.. I guess the idea isn't all that original either but still.. Hope you like it!! Please comment if there's anything you wanna say..

Thanks a lot!!!


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Jea.Lively said...
on Nov. 12 2013 at 11:52 pm
Jea.Lively, Sacramento, California
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Favorite Quote:
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass; it's about learning to dance in the rain.

I enjoyed reading your piece and I love how well you crafted the words to display emotions that were almost tangible. I also really like how you told such a deep story with only minimal wording. Great job :)

Presley B. said...
on Aug. 20 2013 at 7:51 pm
I honestly choked up a little. It might have been a little cliche, but i really enjoyed this. I would have also liked to know more about her illness and to have seen her transition between walking the wheelchair. A good romance story, well done!

on Mar. 18 2013 at 10:09 pm
kristen_98 GOLD, Milton, New Hampshire
12 articles 0 photos 10 comments
This is amazing! When I read your little note about how the words kind of just were flowing out of you I couldn't believe it. You are such a talented writer. I could feel the intensity and emotion the narrator felt throughout the whole article. Especially the parts about her smile and the paragraph where he wants to scream at her for giving up. 

Bodnar101 said...
on Sep. 4 2012 at 12:31 pm
This is beautiful. I cried! I never cry, but now that i read this my cheeks are damp. I love this!

JoshuaChen said...
on Aug. 13 2012 at 10:59 pm
JoshuaChen, Westborough, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"All this philosophy Confucius me"

I have a problem with your first sentence. It's too wordy, for one thing, and it's also in the wrong tense. The monologue is going on while the girl is still alive, so it shouldn't be "Those WERE the words you WOULD utter," but ARE and DO instead. Then there's the problem of wordiness. "Pretty little mouth," "five," "very badly;" all those filler words just clutter your prose with meaningless sounds and slow the pace of the story. You want your sentences--especially your first one--to be clean and concise. I'd personally make it something along the lines of "Those are the words you utter every time you want something," or better yet, "That's what you always say when want something." It's short. It's clean. Most importantly it gets to the point. Hope you give my comment some consideration. :)

JulianaHk said...
on Aug. 13 2012 at 5:56 pm
JulianaHk, Poway, California
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Favorite Quote:
"Nelly, I am Heathcliff — he's always, always in my mind — not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself — but as my own being." — Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights

Personally, I like the loose ends.  While they are usually the sign of impatience or writer's block, in my opinion, ps13795 has left them untied intentionally and artfully.

on Aug. 13 2012 at 4:23 pm
scoobiibaby54 PLATINUM, San Antonio, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
Trust me,I know where my heart is & my heart`s right here.I`m going to keep doin everything because I love to do it,but I will never sacrifice my time between the ropes.That`s no shot to anybody. Everybody's got diff career paths. This is mine-John C.

This was really good!I felt the felling you put into this and it's so sweet and sad.great piece

Wuhu1104 GOLD said...
on May. 17 2012 at 7:22 pm
Wuhu1104 GOLD, Albuquerque, New Mexico
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"Don't ever depend so much on anyone in this world. Even your shadow leaves you when you're in darkness

Can I say that this is a incredible nightmare romance? Absolutely breath-taking(:

on May. 17 2012 at 5:49 pm
not.that.girl BRONZE, Troy, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
My words fly up, my thoughts remain below.
Words without thought never to heaven go.

I'm, like, crying. Fantastic.

on May. 17 2012 at 3:06 pm
AlexHeller DIAMOND, San Mateo, California
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Live with intention. walk to the edge. listen hard. practice wellness. play with abandon. laugh. choose with no regret. continue to learn. appreciate your friends. do what you love. live as if this is all there is. -Mary Anne Rabmacher

my goodness this is lovely. very heart wrenching. i can feel mine beating in myt mouth....

kyrireese GOLD said...
on May. 17 2012 at 10:45 am
kyrireese GOLD, Dallas, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
"Everything will absolutely be all right."
"Hold fast to dreams." - Langston Hughes

I like how you show the flaws of her instead of making her a nice little dying girl. I love it.

on Apr. 3 2012 at 7:44 am
Wow. This is incredibly written, as well as touching. The only advice I have is to continue it. Finish the story! Make it longer. Add more detail to the beginning and finish it. It makes me want to know what happens next! Well done!

vazenitran98 said...
on Mar. 24 2012 at 2:10 pm
vazenitran98, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
0 articles 0 photos 79 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street,I met a man who had no feet."

This was such a magnificient story. I enjoyed the plot very much. You should write more~

on Mar. 12 2012 at 8:19 pm
beautifulspirit PLATINUM, Alpharetta, Georgia
35 articles 0 photos 1398 comments

Favorite Quote:
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
--Eleanor Roosevelt

This sounds like the opening of a great love story~ Usually, I don't read much fiction pieces on the site, but yours was good.

Pizefighter said...
on Feb. 19 2012 at 9:42 pm
Pizefighter, Kenmore, Washington
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I so desperately want to believe that this is a true story, but then I think it would be a great tragedy if it actually was.

Kaffeine said...
on Feb. 19 2012 at 4:22 pm
Kaffeine, X, Other
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This piece is very strong, especially since it's told in the second voice. Wow!

on Jan. 11 2012 at 1:38 pm
Goddess PLATINUM, Connellsville, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

great job! i loved it. lol at one point i thought it was going to be a sad ending (but it wasn't) and i almost cried

on Jan. 6 2012 at 12:46 am
PhoenixCrossing GOLD, Tinley Park, Illinois
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This is beautiful. The emotions are really strong and that's amazing. What I really admire is how you've refrained from using any sort of dialogue and that makes your work right here unique. If you hadn't added in the TV part, this piece could have almost been set in the Middle Ages. Well done!

on Nov. 23 2011 at 5:10 pm
Jappyalldayeveryday, Detroit, Michigan
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They say that good things take time, but really great things happen in the blink of an eye

This is well written and cute, though as you said, the idea is unoriginal.

Fizza SILVER said...
on Nov. 23 2011 at 6:11 am
Fizza SILVER, Raipur, Other
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Very, very nicely written. :D 

Love it <3